Sabtu, 20 November 2010

POSITIVE THINKING

Behavior is an attitude that often is done by someone. Attitude is a hypothetical construct that represent an individual’s degree of like or dislike for an item. Attitudes are generally positive or negative views of a person place, thing are event. Attitudes are composed of thoughts, just as houses are composed of bricks. For this reason, positive thoughts build good attitudes while negative thoughts build bad attitudes.
Blind optimism is the assumption that things you can't control will go your way, regardless of uncertainty or evidence to the contrary. Positive thinkers focus as much as possible on those aspects of reality they can control, and realize that most people can do more than they think they can. Although realistic about their limitations and shortcomings, they seek to transcend them through consistent effort. In this way, they are able to see options that pessimists miss or dismiss, and thereby bring the best out of themselves and others.
Negative thoughts proceed along habitual pathways until they become permanent negative attitudes.

Example of good attitudes in:
Family :Respect to the parents and others family (sister, brother, uncle, etc.), hear and do the parent’s advice, love the family, etc.
In campus: respect to the lecturer and other friends, tell the truth, help to each other, care with other, on time, etc.

Example of bad attitudes in:
Family: lying to the parents, opposing, saying crudely, etc
Campus: gossiping, individualism, making a noisy in the class, don’t respect and care with other

Here are seven simple but powerful tips to having a more positive attitude - and thus becoming a more powerful person.
1. Take passionate action towards living your life. Do not just make it through the day, live it. Sink your teeth into it and live it like it was your last day on earth. Wring every moment out of it and live each day with passion. Passion and a positive attitude are contagious. You will find others attracted to you who are just as passionate about life and living.
2. Act instead of reacting. Don't wait until something bad happens then try to deal with it. Be proactive and make something good happen. You are responsible for what you make of the life you have, and you only have one, so don't waste it. Create the best life you possibly can, one day at a time.
3. Believe that each moment is perfect regardless of its outcome. Bad things happen. That is a fact of life. but that doesn't mean you have to allow it to drag you down. Good can come from everything, no matter how bad it may be at the time. Learn to open yourself up to learn from, and gain strength from, the bad things that happen in your life. Learning to have a positive attitude even when bad things are happening will help you to get through the bad times even stronger and more determined to succeed.
4. Learn to always be grateful for what you have. It's a well-known fact among successful people that having gratitude will get you more than never being satisfied. There's nothing wrong with having dreams and goals and desiring more out of life, but don't forget to be grateful for what you have already. Those who are never satisfied or grateful with what they have get into a "needy" ot "poverty" mindset, where they think they never have have anything, and are doomed to never having anything. A positive attitude attracts positive actions. Gratitude attracts positive energy.
5. Seize every opportunity that you can instead of regretting it later. Now, whatever you do, don't put yourself in the poorhouse or take food out of your childrens' mouths, chasing every get-rich-quick scheme that comes around the corner. But don't be afraid to take opportunities that feel right either. Successful people have taught themselves to have a sixth sense when it comes to taking advantage of new opportunities.
6. Always keep your sense of humor. People like to be around those who find humor in even the most awkward moments. Learn to laugh and you will be more positive, especiall if you can learn to laugh at yourself. don't take yourself, or life, too seriously. Life is much too short to waste it moping around in self pity. Humor is very attractive. A positive attitude can be born from a strong sense of humor.
7. Believe that you are in charge of your destiny. No one can take your dreams from you except for you. As long as there's still breath in your body, there is no limit to how much can accomplish. Life is not something that is going on around you. It is what you

A COMB

I am Susilawati . I am an English literature in Muara Bungo University. I am work in mini market. I am a cashier in a mini market.
I have an unforgettable experience when I was working. Now, I will try to write it.

One a day, I was in a shop alone. My partner and my friends were eating. Suddenly, there was a bald man came in to me. He wore a black thin jacket, a black jeans, black shoes and black glasses. Wow, he was so fearful for me. I think he was not friendly man. I did not have bravery enough. Then he walked in to me again. I was afraid. My body was shaking. I was trying to say something.
“What can I do for you, sir?” Then, he took off his glasses. He stares at me for a view minutes. I was nervous. I wanted screaming everyone to help me if he did something to me. Nevertheless, I tried to always-positive thinking, although I did not do it.
“What do you want sir?” I asked him again. He smiled. His smile was so sweet and friendly.
“There is a comb in here?” he asked me. I wanted to smile and laugh. There was a bald man needed a comb and I thought he would not find in a food shop.
“Nothing a comb here sir…” I replied.

BIOGRAPHY WILLIAM SHAKESPEARE

William Shakespeare was a dramatist and writer of poem, was born at 1564 in Stratfordfon-Avon, England. He studied in a school, but he did not continue in a university. He got married when he was 18 years old. He had three children.
Then, he went to London. He became artist and dramatist. He was success when he was 30 years old and he had made a great creation like Julius Caesar, Hamlet, Othello, Macbeth and King Lear. Shakespeare was dead in 1616.
There were 38 famous dramas, 154 poems, and many others that created by Shakespeare. One of them was Romeo and Juliet.
Although Shakespeare only wrote in English Language, he was very famous in the world. Creation of Shakespeare had been translated and become film in many countries.
Creation of some famour writers were critic by critical art. It same with Shakespeare that his creations were critic by them. Many Writers generation learned Shakespeare’s creation.

Some of Shakespeare’s creation
A MADRIGAL
Crabbed Age and Youth
Cannot live together:
Youth is full of pleasance,
Age is full of care;
Youth like summer morn,
Age like winter weather;
Youth like summer brave,
Age like winter bare:
Youth is full of sports,
Age's breath is short,
Youth is nimble, Age is lame:
Youth is hot and bold,
Age is weak and cold,
Youth is wild, and Age is tame:-
Age, I do abhor thee;
Youth, I do adore thee;
O! my Love, my Love is young!
Age, I do defy thee-
O sweet shepherd, hie thee,
For methinks thou stay'st too long.


FULL FATHOM FIVE
Full fathom five thy father lies;
Of his bones are coral made;
Those are pearls that were his eyes:
Nothing of him that doth fade
But doth suffer a sea-change
Into something rich and strange.
Sea-nymphs hourly ring his knell:
Ding-dong.
Hark! now I hear them,--ding-dong, bell

Sabtu, 14 Agustus 2010

conditional sentences

CONDITIONAL SENTENCES


A. WHAT IS CONDITIONAL SENTENCE?
Conditional Sentence is a sentence that indicates that an action or a condition is completed only if the condition given is fulfilled. Conditional Sentences are also known as Conditional Clauses or If Clauses. They are used to express that the action in the main clause (without if) can only take place if a certain condition (in the clause with if) is fulfilled.
Conditional sentences have two parts: the if-clause and the main clause. In the sentence If it rains, I will stay at home, "if it rains" is the if-clause, and "I will stay at home" is the main clause.


B. TYPES OF CONDITIONAL SENTENCES
There are 4 types of conditional sentences according to the degree of probability that they express.

1. Zero Conditional (type 0)
The zero conditional is a structure used for talking about general truths, or scientific facts_ things which always happen under certain conditions. The verb in the if-clause is in the present tense; the verb in the main clause is in the present tense too.
If-clause ~ Present Tense
Main Clause ~ Present Tense

Formula
IF + DOES, DOES
If + Simple Present Tense, Simple Present Tense

Examples
- If you heat water to 100°C, it boils.
- If you pour oil into water, it floats.
- If you are tired, go to bed!

Used
1. Talk about universal truth.
Example: If you heat ice, it turns to water.
2. To give commands
Example: If you are tired, go to bed!
3. To state general rules
Example: If we heat water enough, it begins to boil.
In statements like that, if means the same as when or every time.


2. First Conditionals (type 1)
The first conditional (also called conditional type 1) is a structure used for talking about possibilities in the present or in the future.
The verb in the if-clause is in the present tense; the verb in the main clause is in the future simple. It doesn't matter which comes first. There is usually a comma between the two clauses.
If-clause ~ Present Tense
Main Clause ~ Future Tense

Formula
IF + DOES, WILL DO
If + Present + Future

Examples
- If I feel sick tomorrow, I will not go to school.
- If it rains, the match will be cancelled.
- If I have the money, I will buy this car.
- If it is sunny, we'll go to the park.
- Peter will be sad if Susan leaves.
- If you cook dinner, I'll wash the dishes.

Used
1. To speaks about possible or probable future events.
If I feel sick tomorrow, I will not go to school..
2. To make promises or warnings
If you forget my birthday, I’ll never speak to you again.


3. Second Conditionals ( type 2)
The second conditional (also called conditional type 2) is a structure used for talking about unreal situations in the present or in the future.
The verb in the if-clause is in the past tense; the verb in the main clause is in the conditional tense.
If-clause ~ Past Tense
Main Clause ~ would + an infinitive

Formula
IF + DID, WOULD DO
If + past tense, would + infinitive

Examples
- If we were birds, we would fly in the sky. (Only wish in future)
- Were I you, I would not attend the meeting.
- If he were the Prime-Minister of India, he would abolish untouchability from the country.
- If you studied hard, you would stand first.
- The people will respect us, if we respect them.

Used
1. To speak about present and future situations which are unlikely to happen.
If I were you I wouldn't do this.
2. When the supposition is contrary to known facts
If I lived in New York, I wouldn't have to commute there each day. (But I don't live in New York.)


4. Third Conditionals (type 3)
The third conditional (also called conditional type 3) is a structure used for talking about unreal situations in the past. In other words, it is used to talk about things which DID NOT HAPPEN in the past.
If-clause ~ Past Perfect Tense
Main Clause ~ Would Have + Past Participle

Formula
IF + HAD DONE, WOULD + HAVE DONE
If + Past Perfect Tense, Would + Present Perfect

Examples
- If I had studied harder, I probably would have passed the exam.
- If I had had enough money, I would have bought the camera yesterday.
- If you had driven more carefully, you would not have had an accident.
- If we had played a little better, we could have won the game.
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Used
1. To speak about impossible past events.
If they’d gone by bus, they would have arrived much later. (They didn’t go by bus).

C. I WISH / IF ONLY
1. We use wish and if only +past simple/continuous or could when we want a situation or thing in the present to be different or to change.
The time of the action referred to in the subordinate clause is the same as the time of making the wish.
Examples
- He wishes that he were rich.
- I wish I didn’t have to leave.
- I wish he was waiting for me.
- I wish I could help you.
2. We use wish + would to complain about a thing or a situation.
Examples
- She wishes that you would come to the meeting tomorrow.
- I wish you wouldn’t be so rude.
- I wish my mother would let me go out till late.
- She wishes her child would sleep all night long.

2. We use wish / if only + past perfect / continuous or could have + p.p. to express a wish about the past.

Examples
- They wish that they had studied harder when they were young. (they didn’t study)
- I wish I hadn’t failed the exam. (I failed the exam

Rabu, 04 Agustus 2010

argumentative essay

WRITING ASSIGNMENT
ARGUMENTATIVE ESSAY
CIGARETTE AND SMOKING


PREFACE

First of all, lets thanks to god (Allah SWT), because of God, I have done my assignment about argumentative essay with the title “Cigarette and Smoking “. Then thanks to my lecturer, Oriza Agustin, SS and my friends that give me support and helping to finish my assignment.
I know that my assignment is not perfect. So, I very hope to reader to give me some good critic or some good advice. Then, I hope there are advantages of this writing.

Muara Bungo, June 2010



Writer



CONTENT

PREFACE
CONTENT
ABSTRACT
CHAPTER I
A.Background
B.Theory
CHAPTER II
A.Cigarette and Smoking
CHAPTER III
A.Conclusion
BIBLIOGRAPHY





ABSTRACT

This writing is used to give information about cigarette and smoking, to improve our knowledge about cigarette and smoking, and to finish my writing assignment.
In this writing, I use observation method and library method. Observation method is I observe or I asked to object directly. Library method is I read books about dangerous of cigarette and smoking.
There are many dangers of smoking to the body, to the immediate family, to the society, to the environment and to the economy. More than 700 chemical additives are found in cigarettes. Some of them are classified as toxic and are not allowed in food.
Key words that often I use in this writing are cigarette, smoke, smoking, dangerous, and advantages.






CHAPTER I

A.BACKGROUND
In this kind of essay, we not only give information but also present an argument with the PROS (supporting ideas) and CONS (opposing ideas) of an argumentative issue. We should clearly take our stand and write as if we are trying to persuade an opposing audience to adopt new beliefs or behavior. The primary objective is to persuade people to change beliefs that many of them do not want to change.
There are many smokers around me. They very enjoy with smoking. They are very proud of it. One of them said that people who do not smoking are not modern. They are in old style. Some of them do not know about the dangerous of it. Some others know, but they still smoking. There are many of them get disease and past away because of cigarette. Because of statement above, I take cigarette and smoking become my object of my writing.

B.THEORY
Experts at The Cancer Institute of New Jersey (CINJ) are available for comment on the development of lung cancer and other related effects of smoking, which are being addressed by this unique day of youth activism. CINJ is a Center of Excellence of UMDNJ-Robert Wood Johnson Medical School.



CHAPTER II

A.CIGARETTE AND SMOKING
What do you think about smoking? Are you interested? Smoking is a bad habit. Smoking can make our body is not good. It means we put the dangerous chemical in our body. Person who smokes a cigarette cannot think in real situation. I mean, they cannot face their real life. Therefore, they take a cigarette to make their mind be happy.
We know that smoking is danger. I think it is not useful to everyone. Usually, people become smokers because others people smoking. It can damage the health. Smoking does not make the body grow well and make the skin becomes wrinkled, also many of our physical health are affected by smoking.
Cigarette is a dangerous material. In cigarette substance, contain nicotine. Nicotine is a substance found in tobacco leaves that can cause addiction. This substance is also extremely dangerous, because cessation of breathing, raises blood pressure and accelerate heart rate, and carbon monoxide is a poisonous gas that can remove oxygen in the body and also causes constriction of blood vessels.
Although they know about dangerous of smoking, they are still want to smoking. They cannot leave it. Why? It happen because in a cigarette consist of many dangerous chemical. One of them is nicotine. Nicotine can make them be depended. They are difficult to leave it, and they cannot stop it, although they want to stop it.
We know there are two types of smokers. They are active smoker and passive smoker. Active smoker is person who smoke cigarette directly. Passive smoker is person who is not inhale smoke directly.
There are advantages of people who do not smoking. They are, not exposed to the risk of illness due to toxin tobacco, the body becomes healthy, fresh, well, and growing normally, can be protected from air pollution (cigarette smoke), and we can save our money.
New smokers rise up so quickly. It happen because there are some advertisements of smoking is so famous in society. There are many interesting images and illustration. It tell about smoker is a success person and a brave person. Smoker can pass barricade.
One thing that makes me sad is smokers rise up from years to years. It means there are additions in new smokers (passive smokers) become active smokers. They smoke along in their life. The new smokers are children and teenagers.
Base on data in Komnas Perlindungan Anak (2007) show that, 91, 7% teenagers (13-14 years old) in Jakarta become smokers. It always rises up from years to years. It means that account of death is rise up too.
Base on data that I get from internet, there are many problems coming from smoking. The problems are, smokers have low lung function than people who do not smoking, and it make our lung cannot grow well. In some adult smokers, diseases are caused by smoking are heart disease and stroke, but it happen in teenagers smokers too. People who smoking one pack or more than in a day, they will get lifeless until 7 years than people who do not smoking. Smoking in children age will rise to get lung cancer.










CHAPTER III

A.CONCLUSION
Base on data, we can take a conclusion that there are some reason the smokers smoke are nicotine, advertisement, and they get stress in their life. There is no advantage of smoking. It just spends our money and it can affect in our body.






BIBLIOGRAPHY

Website
http://www.buowl.boun.edu.tr/students/types%20of%20essays/ARGUMENTATIVE%20ESSAY.htm

http://www.stop-smoking-tips.com/dangers-smoking.html

http://www.tldm.org/News10/HomosexualityMoreDangerousThanSmoking.htm

http://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/143000.php

http://www.allaboutlifechallenges.org/dangers-of-smoking-faq.htm

Selasa, 20 Juli 2010

WHY DO YOU SMOKING?


What do you think about smoking? Are you interested? or Are you uninterested?
Smoking is a bad habit. Smoking can make our body is not good. It means we put the dangerous chemical in our body. Person who smokes a cigarette cannot think in real situation. I mean, they cannot face their real life. Therefore, they take a cigarette to make their mind be happy.
There are two types of smoker. They are active smoker and passive smoker. An active smoker is a person who sucks a cigarette directly. A passive smoker is a person who sucks smoke indirectly. The active smokers say that there are many advantages of smoking. They always happy. They never feel sadness. According to them, smoking is a necessary for their life. They cannot pass their life happily without smoking. They never feel afraid about everything. They have a big power to do everything that they like. They can be a wonder person.
Base to the passive smokers, they are very disturbed by smoke of cigarette. They hate it because they will affect some disease. Same with active smokers. They feel headache when they suck it.
In other side, smoking is very dangerous for our body. Smoking is affected everybody that suck it. The disease are caused by Smoking not only affect cigarette are lung cancer, gullet cancer, raise our blood pleasure, coroner heart, pneumonia, etc. It can make somebody dead.
Although they know about dangerous of smoking, they are still want to smoking. They cannot leave it. Why? It happen because in a cigarette consist of many dangerous chemical. One of them is nicotine. Nicotine can make them be depended. They are difficult to leave it, and they cannot stop it, although they want to stop it.
New smokers rise up so quickly. It happen because there are some advertisements of smoking is so famous in society. There are many interesting images and illustration. It tell about smoker is a success person and a brave person. Smoker can pass barricade.
One thing that makes me sad is smokers rise up from years to years. It means there are additions in new smokers (passive smokers) become active smokers. They smoke along in their life. The new smokers are children and teenagers.
Base on data in Komnas Perlindungan Anak (2007) show that, 91, 7% teenagers (13-14 years old) in Jakarta become smokers. It always rises up from years to years. It means that account of death is rise up too.
Base on data, we can take a conclusion that there are some reason the smokers smoke are nicotine, advertisement, and they get stress in their life. There is no advantage of smoking. It just spends our money and it can affect in our body.
So, please try to stop smoking for the smokers. Say no to smoking for passive smokers or for new smokers. Never feel you don not self-confidence if you do not smoke. Keep freighting always. Say that you cannot accept this attitude. Give a good example for others.

Senin, 05 Juli 2010

short story

I WAS ALONE
By: Susilawati

Experience is a part of your life. The experience has a lot of stuff. There is a fun, sad, embarrassing and boring. An unforgettable experience that makes us wants to repeat or not. I also have one experience in my life. I can not forget it. That experience really makes me change my character. Here I will tell my experiences.
I was a girl who did not have self-confidence. I was always insecure and shy when I met strangers. My mother would not believe if I could be left or far from my mother. In my family, only had one daughter, she was me. I had two brothers and one younger brother. Nevertheless, I was not a spoiled child. My parents, especially my father never indulged me. They always gave me some advice to get my ideals. How about love? It would follow us.
Like women in the village, when they got teenagers or adults (above 11 years), the parents who was still minded laymen, would marry them with an adult man and a man who had a job. The old man thought that there was no point in a high school for them. Only spend their parents’ money. They would return to the kitchen and took care of their husbands. Therefore woman enough to elementary school only.
Different with my parents, although my mother did not finish elementary school, but my mother’s thought did not like them, life was like a fairy tale ended in marriage. My mother believed the school and the science that could change people's lives to be better expect prayed to Allah, our God. Mother did not wish their children had same life with him or worse than him. Mother wants her children’s life better than him. Money could be searched but about the willingness and the opportunity it represents something that was difficult to obtain. That why after I graduated from elementary school, there was only one woman who continued to junior high school, she was me.
My parents put me in junior high, outside the city. One of the reasons my parents did not want to put me in the schools in our country because the schools in our area was not good quality. But I know the main reason was the mother scared. My mother was afraid I was influenced by those thoughts. Mother was afraid I would drop out of school. Mother was afraid that if I made a relationship with a man who was not good. My mother did not want me failed. My mother wanted me to be better. My mother also wanted to have a different girl with other girls.
I received in one junior high school outside the city. This place was still strange for me. I did not have friends. Nothing people I knew. I came to school with my brother. I felt very scared and embarrassed. I wanted to go home. In there I saw a lot of students talked and laughed together. They looked very enjoy and happy. I really wanted to be like them.
Three-day introductory period had passed. Everything was normal. Nothing exciting. Nothing memorable. Everything was boring. I knew, probably because there was not a senior who I knew before. In addition, my body posture was fat and short, made people not interested to saw me. I did not care about that. I always obeyed the rules that they created. I would not search problems with them. I knew, they would seek and found our mistakes.
Boarding house. This was the most feared my mother. My mother scared, I could not adjust to my new environment. I felt, it was difficult for me. I felt there was something missing from me. I did not hear any more chickens crowing, birds chirping, and the sound of my neighbor’s goats belong me. I also often cried in the bathroom when I missed my mom. The people around me did not matter with my situation. They were busy with their own activities. However I was sure if I could do it.
Learning was a duty. So, I seldom left the house only to wrote or read something that said friends in the boarding house "was not interesting and not important." My record seemed when I was two junior high classes. I got the first rank. When the first class I did not have the courage to spoke like other friends. In fact, I just knew with my classmates only. Nothing else that I knew. This was a great honor for me, a little girl from the village.
When I was in third junior classes. I had one problem. A beautiful girl who I think arrogance (I knew after meeting with him), wanted a room. He wanted to be alone in it. He would pay two times more than from rents a room at this place. There was no empty room there. In one room occupied by two people. Expect my room, I was alone in this room. My boarding house mother advised him to stayed one room with me. He remained still want one room. He did not care how about somebody else.
I was very disappointed with my boarding house’s mother. That night, he gave me two options. I moved from this place or stayed here but three people in a room. Three peoples in a room that size was 3 x 3 m2 and all ours. That was too narrow. Finally I decided to move from this place.
In my new place, my room. This room had size 4 x 4 m2, one window and two doors. I lived with a woman who had worked. I was happy there. There were many trees here and made my room colder.
One night I slept alone because a friend of mine went to the village. I always heard the music before bed. That night was raining. The lamp was off. I went to bed early. Before sleeping I felt afraid without knowing what I feared. I do not care about those feelings. I tried to close my eyes but so difficult to did it. I tried, tried and tried. May be, I slept.
I heard something that was not clear. I opened my eyes. I saw my hand phone. It was at 01.25 a.m. I felt so sleepy. I tried to close my eyes. But, I felt something strange. I opened my eyes, and ... aaaaaa...!!! I screamed. I was shocked. I was panic. I was afraid. A man tried to check in into my room through the window. I ran out through the door near the room my mother's boarding house and the man ran out through other door. We nearly collided. I though the man was surprised when I shouted and heard scream and panic. So he ran away without direction. He did not know what he would do.
All who were in this house woke up. Father’s boarding house chased the man. The man was not caught. But Father’s boarding house knew who the man. He was a man who was abnormal. He often interfered with the girls.
This is my carelessness. I did not look at the window before I slept. And I was so sad about that happened. I promised in my own, I would not make a careless again. I would be carefully at the next.
I often laughed when I remembered what was happening that night. Why was not I thinking to beat him with anything that was near with me. I was looking a fool girl.
Since that incident I did not dare to sleep alone. It all happened because I forgot to lock the window well. I was very sad for this incident. I would be forgot it.
About my education. I believed, there was a want, there was a way. So, I tried to do the best for my life, for my family, for me and others. I think I would not face my problem in my life, but I could. Never though we could do it, but though how we could face it. And we could do it.

Jumat, 02 Juli 2010

short story

I AM SORRY
By: Susilawati

One afternoon, drizzling rain comes. That day is cloudy. The sky is so blue. It is covered by black cloud. The sun still wants to shine. The sky knows what does happen in te earth. The skies cry and flood the earth. The small heap is given some kinds of flowers. The small heap is planted gravestone. The corner Bungo city is like an empty place, a cold pace, a frozen place, without a duvet. The village is covered by the sadness.
A little girl who wears a veil sits lowly beside the gravestone. She does not cry but her face shows the deep sadness. She does not have enough energy to walks and to does an activity. Green shirt, black dress, and black veil that she wears are wet. It happens because of drizzling rain. She does not know about herself. Her hands shake. She touch gravestone. She said, “I am ready, my mother is yours God”.

***
An adult man with thin moustache walked in to an adult woman. He had black skin and curly hair. His tall was about 175 cm. His weight was about 60 kg. He had a sweet smile, and he was a handsome man. He said “I am sorry… “.
Hendrawan was Sherly’s father. He gets married again because his first wife could not make him be happy. His first wife could not give him a son. His daughter could not make him be proud. The daughter would be given to a man who was ready to marry. The daughter lived with their parents until 14 years old. Then they had married.
A woman who wore a veil sat down on the floor. Her face showed the sadness. Then she cried. The clothes that she wore showed about her heart. Yellow veil showed the pain. Her veil and her clothes were untidy. Her heart was broken.
Rahma knew about her illness. Her heart was broken. She was jealous when she saw her husband with the new wife, but she was ready. She wanted her husband would be happy. Her husband was a king for her heart, for her life. She loved him so much. She never denied what he said.
Rahma very loved her daughter, Sherly. She though her daughter about life, religion, and polite attitude. She put Sherly to a school in local area. During about 8 years old, she made her husband be disappointed. She got illness when her daughter 6 years old. She got a cancer. She must be operated. It caused she could not get a baby again. And if she got pregnant, it would make her soul be danger. She would die.
A little girl grew become teenager. She was 14 years old. She had white skin and brown eyes. Her father face stuck in her face. Her clothes always made her looked an adult woman. Her body was slim. She was a beautiful girl.
She graduated from senior high school. She never complained what her parents gave to her. Her birthday in 14th years old, she wanted to celebrate with her parents.
Sunday morning, it was so bright. The birds sang. The flowers smiled. It was not like atmosphere in Sherly’s heart. To day was her birthday. She wore a green shirt, black dress and black veil. The cloth was not for her birthday, but for attended her father wedding.
The holy situation happened in the mosque. The king and the queen were ready to accept the power. An old man sat between them. Many people sat around them. An old man began the ritual.
An adult woman sat in the corner of peoples. The queen took place her position in the king’s heart. She looked lowly. She was silent, but she was calm. Purple kebaya that was wore by her. Rahma left that moment before the moment finished. She walked. She went to home. Sherly followed her.
Situation in Rahma’s home was quiet. There was no dialogue between them. Sherly stare her mother. Her mother sat near of her sewing machine. Her mother could sew quickly, but she could not sew again because of her illness.
Suddenly, Sherly’s mother stood up and felt down on the floor. Sherly ran and shouted. Mom…! Sherly was panic. Sherly did not know what would was she do. She ran out to the neighbor’s house. There was no one in there. They went to her father’s wedding. Sherly though to give this happen to her father, but she was afraid about her mother’s condition. Then she brought her mother to the doctor alone.
A man that wore a tidy clothes, come in to Sherly. He had 170 cm tall and 54 kg weight. His skin was white. He carried Sherly’s mother and brought in a room.
The door a room opened. There was a handsome man. He stood in there. His face was polite. He came in to Sherly. Sherly stood up and hope the doctor said something about her mother. He said “I am sorry”. Sherly sat down lowly. Her body shook. She could not see clearly. Then she did not know what happened in the next.
Sherly opened her eyes. She was in her home. The situation was noisy with people who read Yasiin. She got up and run in to the body’s mother. The body was covered by winding sheet. The body did not have soul. The body did not have bloods. Sherly kissed her mother. She did not cry, but Sherly forgot one thing. An adult man that must attended. A father that was loved by Sherly. But, there was no that man in there. Her father did not come till her mother was buried.

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Sherly walks lowly to her house. She is alone. The building with 48 m2 size. Her house has two bedrooms, a living room, a kitchen, and a little bathroom. There are many kinds of flowers in front of the house. The street always stays there.
She promises with her self. She must continuous her study. She must be a success person. She always remembers what her mother said. “Never cry for your sadness, but you may cry for your mistake”.
I think not only boys but also girls can study more than 15 years old. The girls can make their parents. The girls can choose their study what they want. They may get their ideas. The girls can real their parents dream. Do not forget to work hard and study hard to get it.